Moving moving moving

Preamble. So it seems like I only post once a year. I struggle sometimes to keep up my motivation for this blog. It used to be a unique method of posting pictures and funny stories about my kids, but Ive realized now what its purpose is. It is a love letter to my children and to my wife. It represents my thoughts of the single greatest investment I have poured myself into (ie my children with my wife) and to be honest anything thats posted online will live forever. Think of all the other things we do for our families. Take pictures. We store those pictures on our computers and on back ups. What happens if our houses burn down. What happens if our stuff breaks. Huge industries and systems are in place to keep every little bit of information that goes online continually moving. So here I set adrift another message in a bottle to Autumn, Azarian and Kerean that they may one day hear me and know me and know themselves also. It is also a promise to you, my dearly neglected reader, that i will try to make this a pit stop in my contemplations more often.

Moving. I have wanted to move for a long time. I live in Steinbach. Nothing wrong with it. Its a fantastic community. Really great people, safe, kind. A great place to raise children. Yet Ill tell you, my wife and I (in our hearts) are adventurers. We fell in love with that spirit in each other and we found a kinship in our willingness to explore. We traveled alot in our twenties, but our thirties has been mostly family themed, which I wouldn't change for anything. Yet, I have and continue to seek out opportunities that would take us far from here. I have struggled with the idea of moving and how it would affect my kids. I have always found the transition part of life so especially hard. I love and treasure people to the very heart. My soul is so interlinked that I often feel like my relationships are a part of me and to remove them would be like removing an arm. Yet when you lose an arm, you learn how to make other parts of you work better. Human beings thrive an adverse circumstance. Our bodies and minds are literally waiting for bad stuff to happen so we have to put ourselves out of our comfort zone to be healthy. As an adult I can say this, but I feel bad imparting the challenge on my children. Child hood is so terribly fraught with drama and its difficult to know how to steer the ship effectively simply because sometimes hardship causes people to come out of there shell and sometimes it stuffs them back into one and you don't always know, which one is going to happen. I think ultimately I want for my kids to have a season of their life being away from the familiar so perhaps they will appreciate it more. 

Now for the lighter side. AZARIAH HAS TEETH!! He lost his two front teeth at the end of school last year and has finally two discernable grown teeth sliding in. I am so excited. I have a phobia of teeth. Seeing his gap tooth mouth like he was a hockey player disturbed me. I dont know why, its not rational, but it causes me anxiety. At any rate, he has regrown teeth and I need not restrain waves of anxiety when he opens his mouth. 

Autumn is learning social cues. Kerean still refers to times in the past as "last morning." The kids are firmly obsessed with watching youtube, their favourite thing being these videos where other kids play with toys. To think of all those times I let my kids waste playing with toys when I could have been filming them and cashing in on their childhood. 

Well thats all for now, Ill try and come up with something soon-It usually doesnt take long.